JeNN<33

my boyfriend is amazing
&& adorable.
this just made my day :)
&& he just makes my life complete<33.

slow
like a sloth slithering up a tree.
Teeth
used for tearing bits of tea.
Cupcakes
and candy canes
buried beneath the sea.
Sprinkles
sparkling like pixie dust
inhaled by all with grace
and lust.
Perception
distorted by reality
hearts shattered with words spoken carelessly.
Tingling
skin where hairs raise in fear
Ruby red river
flowing throughout with wonder
ending unclear.

And these words i speak are unknown
unrehearsed
channeled outward
like a curse in reverse.
and theres never an end to
the thoughts or when
i will stop and believe
and fill the empty pages
with words that you need
to fullfil and to enter to exit the brain
intrigue and invite
entice and plague.
it sounds the same and feels the same
pointing fingers
"your to blame"
are we so thoughtless and unaware?
blind in our actions
our words
our stare?
unknowingly
or conciously
you'll never know
the thoughts progress
my mind
it GROWS.

"So break ourselves down
And build ourselves up in disappointment
How fragile we are
So fragile we are, we just don't show it
Shake up this town
And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment
So sexy we are
So sexy we are, we just don't know it" 





hooray for orlando.
this summers been rough.

It's the little things
that we do.
that mean anything<3.

beautiful&everlasting
my imagination runs wild
the sun shines upon the greenest grass
and makes the flowers bloom their fullest
::orange::
  ::white::
   ::pink::
   ::yellow::
painted against the everblue sky
with marshmallow clouds clustered in pairs
a smile spreads across my lips
a joyous celebration  flows through my veins.
sweet, peaceful, serenity
has swept me off my feet.
who knew love could taste so sweet?

I HATE you.

Im not the person I always thought I would be.
I can be hypocritical at times
I drive myself crazy with my insecurities
I don't sing anymore
I don't sing anymore
I don't sing anymore
singing in the car doesn't count
I need to get involved somehow
but I don't know where to start.
I have'nt kept in touch with a lot of people
I wonder how some people are & how their life is now
I've forgotten so much
how everything used to be
those high school days
those carefree afternoons.
those people who made the years fly by.
the ones who made me laugh & cry & enjoy my simple life.

I keep losing people
&& the fact that they are never coming back hurts.
I dont know how to really cope with it
or understand it
it scares me
cause i feel like i could be next.

I've become nothing
I've accomplished nothing.
another year gone by
&& I'm standing still.
befuddled by my thoughts.

sup!?

its my birthday
im an old fart.
holla@yo girrrrlll<3

Greg:
i used your skim board the other day
& learned how to skim for you.
i skimmed for you today too.
the beach always feels like its missing something now
its missing you.
& your hairy feet & happy trail haha.
&your goofy smile&your emo hair.
& tim yelling at you like he yelled at me
for being slow.
you would have loved to stare at all the girls today
or maybe just one ;)

i told my sister that timmy & i had a surprise for her
& the first thing she said in an excited tone was
"GREG!?"

This just proves that even though my sister
only knew Greg a short time
he touched her heart
she loved him
she enjoyed bugging him
he made such a big impact
on her life that having him as a surprise
would be wonderful & exciting
a "great surprise"
when she said that
our hearts dropped.:(

she doesnt know about what happened
theres no point in telling her
its too sad & she would be heartbroken.

like we all are.

Motion City Soundtrack
for Greg tomorrow
he would have loved to be there
i wish Earle& Sara could have came :(

well, Just thinking of you Greg
you will be deeply missed
&were always thinking about you
& reminiscing& laughing
about all the fun we had with you
our memories of you will never fade.

Greg, gregarious:)
me and timmy miss you so much already
there was never a dull moment
we were always laughing & fooling around
riding in the G-wip
playing HAALLLOO
the night we created cXc was an amazing night i will never forget
singing at the top of our lungs, dancing like crazy kids,
running across the street & being reckless on the side of the road
all the while,taking a million pictures to capture our wildness

always car accidents.
thats all it ever is anymore
its terrible & it needs to sto.p

start wearing your seat belt.
stop driving recklessly.
please.
i cant handle any one else who is close to me
getting killed in a car accident.
be safe.
please.

I love you all
and i love you Greg Landau R.I.P.

Its been a year
i still cant believe your gone
I think about you everyday.
your always in my heart<3

Still floating soft
I am dreaming and I'm glad I lost
And still with my fingers
I'm drawing circles in the water
In the water
And still, still you're always there.

R.I.P. Miguel Ramos.

i decided to make pastel art yesterday. this is the best i could do :)

FRIENDS ONLY: starting NOW.

deal with it.<3

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